Just My Thoughts

Do you every just think about what you could have done to make things different.  This is a thought that I have all the time.  Mainly because I’m not happy with who I am right now.  I feel like I’m not a great person all the time because I dwell on everything.

A lot of it has to do with my military career.  I feel like I’m a terrible civilian.  Being a soldier was easy to me.  I knew what I was doing.  I feel like if I didn’t get hurt I could have finished my career out and been a little different for me.  I just don’t fit in with society.  I don’t feel like I’m really a part of it even though I have to be now that I was medical discharged from the military.  I don’t get along with people and going out to places annoys me.  I don’t know how to fix this problem at all.

Sometimes I feel like if I just stay in my house I would be doing the world a great service.  Because I don’t feel like I contribute to the world anymore.  I just feel like a failure all the time.  I know that’s a terrible way to think but I don’t know any other way to think.  When I was in the military I felt like I was a part of something and now I’m not.  So I was wondering if any other person felt that way.

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