Do you every just think about what you could have done to make things different. This is a thought that I have all the time. Mainly because I’m not happy with who I am right now. I feel like I’m not a great person all the time because I dwell on everything.
A lot of it has to do with my military career. I feel like I’m a terrible civilian. Being a soldier was easy to me. I knew what I was doing. I feel like if I didn’t get hurt I could have finished my career out and been a little different for me. I just don’t fit in with society. I don’t feel like I’m really a part of it even though I have to be now that I was medical discharged from the military. I don’t get along with people and going out to places annoys me. I don’t know how to fix this problem at all.
Sometimes I feel like if I just stay in my house I would be doing the world a great service. Because I don’t feel like I contribute to the world anymore. I just feel like a failure all the time. I know that’s a terrible way to think but I don’t know any other way to think. When I was in the military I felt like I was a part of something and now I’m not. So I was wondering if any other person felt that way.