Why does everything seem so hard. No matter what I do it just feel like I’m falling short on everything. Work is not walk in the park at the moment. It’s really a struggle for me. I work hard but I feel like I’m not being successful with it. I have a lot of different things going on right now and I fill like I’m juggling to much. Everyday feels like I’m taking two steps back and no steps forward. I just don’t know what I’m doing wrong. It seems like the tides are against me. The words the Struggle Is Real has never been so true.
It seems like when I was in the military I just had to do one thing and I did it well. Now I feel like I’m having to do a million things with no success in any of them. The stress is just building up and my anxiety is just building each and every day. I have tried many different things to calm my anxiety but it doesn’t work. I have a true fear of people and communicating with people because of it. This make it even harder to get by. This is why I have been missing so much work and makes it hard to just even go and do work.
It’s not just the fear of people it’s also the fear I will explode and say or do things that might not be politically correct or legal (Hit someone). This is why I tend to be by myself most the time. So I don’t do something that would cause me more problems. Does anyone else feel this way.