Lost

Do you ever feel like you are a child lost in the woods.  I do, ever time I look in the mirror.  When I look in the mirror I just don’t know who I am.  I want to say that I’m a soldier, but I am no longer a soldier.  My identity is lost for who I am.  I’m a husband, but I feel like I’m not that good at being a husband due to all the issues I have.

I work as a analyst but I feel like I’m just another number at work in a world were you feel worthless.  This is a feeling of loneliness.  There is not soldier bond there.  When you hear people talk and you just want to scream at them because you think they are not using the best method for things.

I’m also going to be a father and will I be a good father.  I don’t know.  I get irritated easily, and I have other issues that I think will also interfere with me interacting with the child.

I tend to loss myself in video games just to get lost from the world.  When I am playing a video game I just try to pretend that I”m the person in the game.  When I do that I tend to forget everything around me and I don’t care.  So I’m just a lost soul walking on this earth.

Does anyone else feel this way?

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