I just wish I was someone else. Would not have to deal with panic attacks, anxiety, or have issues with sleeping. Oh to be normal is what I would love to be. To be able to go out of the house without feeling like your being followed or have to be on alert all the time. It’s an on going battle just in your own mind that keeps going. Sometimes I look back at everything and questions my choices. Did I make that right choice of joining. I always tell myself yes but Do I really.
If I was normal I would be able to make friend here in Texas. Although, I try at every effort to avoid people. The terrible thing is I would like to have a close free to be able have someone to talk to that understands me. So that’s the problem. So if I was not be I would not be going through all of this.