Do you ever feel like you are not good enough. That’s how I feel almost every single day. You go from being a good soldier and knowing your craft as a soldier, to not being a soldier. It’s an empty feeling that I have every single day. I try to find something that I’m good at but I just fall short of being great at something.
This is a lonely feeling because I watch others be great at what they do, but I can no longer be great at what I did in the military. I just walk each day just comparing my life to now to what it was like in the military. I hate it because it makes that empty void in my life seem to just get bigger. I have an accounting degree and I can’t seem to find a job with it. I am married but I feel like I’m not a great husband, and to make matter worse I’m about to have a baby boy and I’m afraid I might not make a great father because of this.